My life has been a whirlwind as of late. Usually I’d follow that kind of a statement with the gritty details as to why, which would then lead into a declaration that I’ll be better about playing games and writing about them as if that really means anything. I always plan to write something poetic about the beauty of games and the joy I get out of writing about them, but in all honesty I haven’t even had time to think about either. The bigger realization here is that I’m perfectly OK with that.
What I have been doing is examining the way I play video games, because it seems to be the antithesis of how my kids do it. Quite frankly, they’re having more fun than me. I’ll sit and perseverate on what difficulty I’m playing on, whether I’m making the right choices and how many side activities I’m willing to go into and so on and so forth. On the other hand they just…play. They smile and talk and giggle and cheer and sigh. If things don’t go their way, they just simply begin again and plunge headfirst. I just ponder, overanalyze and start over, defeated and deflated. I’ve made it into work, as if anybody pays me to give or frankly even gives a damn about my opinion on anything in the first place.
Because you are reading this I’ve obviously surmised I get edification from writing about games. What I’ve also realized that I need to start playing and writing the same way my children do – with pure, unadulterated joy. I’m quick to want to start an internal rubric on how I’m going to tackle Obtain Potion, but maybe it’s time to let go a little and just, I dunno, play for a change. I already stress out enough with life in general as it is, why would I bring that into my pastime? It sounds silly writing that out, but I’ve had such a hard time separating the fact that I am by no means a professional writer and that I just like to do it on my own terms, casually.
I have a direction I want to go, but the path itself is rather nebulous. Obtain Potion is a thing I do to entertain myself, and hopefully it’ll entertain others in the process. At least, that’s the hope. I love to write about video games, take photographs of the paraphernalia surrounding it and dig into the history of their creation and reception. I’m not entirely sure how I’m going to go about doing that, but I’ll figure it out along the way.
In a none-too-surprising manner, today I’ve decided to give myself a clean slate. I want to give Obtain Potion a fresh start, to give itself a new canon that splits itself from over a decade of writing I can’t seem to move on from. To use a common gaming trope, this is the remake — taking the things that worked from an old version and sprucing it up to meet today’s standards. What that’ll be is up in the air. And I couldn’t be more excited.